I do not like anticipation, waiting, surprises; I am a person of action and these things make me crazy. If I had to pick a weakness this would be it, I am not good at waiting. I was the kid digging through my parent’s closet weeks before Christmas, and I am the person who hates when someone says “I have a surprise for you!”.
If I am waiting for something to happen, I want to be planning while I am waiting. I think it is why I need a formal training program when getting ready for a race; it is also why I always need to have some sort of race scheduled at some time in the future. I would love to say I am a dedicated athlete who has spent my life worshipping at this temple that is my body. Truth is, that I have not done that, but at some I point realized that I am a planner who does not like to fail. If I made my goal to get healthy, stay in shape, and train for a PR in every race, these things would keep me going until all of this healthy eating and exercising stuff just became part of who I am.
I am anticipating something different right now, something a little more personal and I am struggling with how to keep myself busy while waiting. Any planning I have to do for this event is short and can be completed in a couple of days and the event is still a couple of weeks out from today. So the good news, it is keeping me focused on my physical training and eating because these things keep my mind off of it. The bad news, I would have to be running every waking hour to not think about it…Ugh!
So, what I really need to do is practice patience and keep a positive attitude as I wait for the next new adventure in my life :). And remind myself that sometimes it is OK to be the passenger and not the driver.