I am going to forego my running updates (well at least in part, I will mention it in the end), to discuss giving and forgiving.
I had a situation this weekend where at some point I said to someone “Take off the saint hat, it does not fit”. It was certainly a mean thing to say and I probably should have explained myself better. So, that is going to come out here, today, in my blog.
When you choose to give, when you choose to forgive; you have to do both without expectation of something in return. You have to decide to do each out of kindness, out of a sense of humanity, you have to be altruistic; you have to offer grace. If that is not your intent going in, you will be disappointed.
Altruism is about selflessness and grace about giving and forgiving without strings. These are both hard, I think they must not come natural to a lot of people, they certainly do not come naturally to me, but every day I keep them in my mind so that I may grow into them.
Now on to my running, something I do for myself. I Did a couple of short runs this week and tomorrow my daughter and I are going to do a trial run on the hills that are part of the course for our race next week. Next Saturday we run a 10-miler, the 3rd race in a three race series.
And what about altruism and grace in running? I give my all to running, I do not expect to win every race, I do not expect to PR every time I go. I go to give to myself and sometimes to forgive myself for that piece of cake I ate last night :).